I’m gonna cut my wrists tonight

I can’t I just can’t anymore I’ve come to terms with it with everything I’m 14 so I’m young but I can’t do this anymore (I know people are gonna say your young don’t do this and I won’t stop them) I’m shaking I just need to write my notes and all I just I can’t anymore I don’t know what to do I was raped at 13 and sexual assaulted multiple times throughout my life I was bullied I’ve always had problems with my life being abused ruined my childhood it ruined my mental health and camhs didn’t get me help they just ruined wanting help. I give up I’m so sorry god I just wanted to be a normal teenager